Sometimes All I Have Left is Laughter

March 27, 2009


Filed under: Am I still Laughing?,God in Control,Random Thoughts — by tulips4me @ 6:05 am

I live in the Rocky Mountain region.  I have lived here since 1993.  One would think that I would be used to Spring snowstorms.  The fact is, even though we really needed the moisture due to an unusually dry Winter, I am ready for Spring Showers that don’t include white stuff.  I am ready to turn dirt over and plant yummy things to eat.  To have grass in the yard that doesn’t feel like straw.  To see tulips that aren’t surrounded by a blanket of white.  I know these things will all come in due time. 

In the mean time, I will enjoy my coffee, the beautiful view of the park across the street shrouded in white and be thankful that my family is safe in our home.


February 22, 2009

What you don’t want the doctor to say…

Filed under: Am I still Laughing?,God in Control,Random Thoughts — by tulips4me @ 3:25 pm

Last Monday I took Son #1 to the doctor.  He?  Had a virus.  Hmmm I am so glad that psycho grandma opened her baggie and gave him antibiotics…they were so helpful!  The doctor gave him cough medicine with codeine and instructed him to drink fluids and rest.  By Friday he was feeling great.

I, on the other hand, started downhill on Tuesday with a tickle in my ear and throat and somewhat upset stomach.  By Wednesday I had a very tight cough that made my throat feel as if it were on fire and a decidedly upset stomach.  Thursday I should have stayed in bed in between running to the bathroom however, deadlines at work beckoned me.  By Friday morning I was really miserable and my co-workers were wishing for medical masks. So, I went to the doctor. 

Now let me digress for a moment.  We have all received those emails with the list of funny, or not so funny, things (depending on ones perspective) that we don’t want to hear the doctor say.  For the most part, I have laughed at them. 

Back to Friday.  The doctor looks at me very sincerely and says, “I hate to tell you this but what you have is very hard to get rid of and there isn’t anything I can give you for it.  It just has to run its course”  Great!!!  Just what I wanted to hear.  I did not laugh.  Which was good, because she was not trying to be funny.

Today is Sunday.  For the most part my stomach seems to be back to normal and the Mucinex and ibuprofen seem to be doing what they were intended to do.  I wonder if I should pick up those masks on the way to the office tomorrow?

October 2, 2008

GPS 23 (From Greg Stier’s Blog)

Filed under: God in Control,Random Thoughts — by tulips4me @ 12:56 pm

I could not resist sharing this.

The GPS is my guide, I shall not get lost.
She makes me drive over black asphalt.
She leads me beside quiet side streets.

She restores my sense of peace in a strange town.
She guides me in paths of right directions.
for her brand name’s sake.

Even though I speed
under the shadow of the overpass
I will fear no dead ends
for you are with me;
your satellite and calming voice,
they comfort me.

You prepare a map before me
in the presence of drivers with road rage.
My venti cup of joe overflows when I hit a pothole
And annoints my pants with coffee stains.

Surely State Troopers will not follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will continue to find my destinations forever.

August 21, 2008

The First Day of Middle School

Filed under: Am I still Laughing?,God in Control,Mom Stuff,Random Thoughts — by tulips4me @ 10:33 pm

The date was August 19, 2008.  My not quite 11 year old was up early.  He took a shower, put on his new shorts and shirt and came downstairs for breakfast.  We chatted as he ate and I sipped my coffee.  I had been up for quite some time myself.  Not because I needed to go into work early, but because I could not sleep thinking about the significance of this day. 

This was the first day that he would go to the neighborhood school, instead of the charter school on the other side of town.  This was the first day that he would be able to choose what he wore to school, instead of wearing the predetermined uniform that was required at the charter school.  This was the first day that he would ride the bus to school.  This was the first day that he would come home after school, instead of going to his grandparents home. 

As I prepared for my day, it was all I could do to keep the tears at bay.  About 30 minutes before it was time for him to walk to the corner and wait for the bus, I asked him to pray with me.  I prayed that he would make friends at this new school, that he would be a friend, that he would let His light shine in all that he said and did, and that he would learn a lot.  As I prayed, tears streamed down my face.  When the last amen was said, this not quite 11 year old put his arms around me and said, “It is going to be okay Mom.” 

And it was.  They sure do grow up fast!

August 4, 2008

Baby Steps

Filed under: God in Control,Mom Stuff,Random Thoughts,Stepmom Rants — by tulips4me @ 5:15 pm

Things have not always been rosy with Son #1 and his mother (ED).  She has spent many years making our lives very difficult.  So much so that it has been 3 years since he last spent the night in our home, not because My Hubby and I don’t want to have overnight visits with him, but because the manipulation from ED put so much pressure on him, we gave up fighting it.  He does visit us frequently.  He comes and plays basketball with his brothers and has attended some family funtions with My Hubby’s family.  My family is a different story.  ED has rarely allowed Son #1 to participate in activities or events that involve my family.  He has been able to come over a few times when my parents have been in town, however ED has only allowed him to go with us to visit them one time, when he was 5 years old.  He is now 16.  The last time he saw my brother was 6 years ago, for about 15 minutes.

A lttle history is appropriate here.  My parents and my brother have always treated Son #1 as if he were my bio-son.  They have never made any distinction between any of my children.  There are birthday and Christmas presents every year and they always ask how he is when we chat on the phone, just like they do for Son #2 and Son #3.  When we have visited, they are always sad that he has not been allowed to come with us and when they are here, they are very disappointed that they are not able to see him.

We were preparing to go to my brother’s house yesterday afternoon, when Son #1 called and said he would like to come over.  My Hubby told him he would love to see him however, we were headed to my brother’s house and then asked if he would like to join us.  After getting some details, he said he would check with ED and call us back.  We did not hold our breath.  You could have knocked us over with a feather when he called back to say that he could go!  My Hubby and I stared at each other for a few minutes in disbelief.  Then we rushed out the door to pick him up before she could come to her senses and change her mind!

We spent 3 hours talking and eating.  My kids and my niece and nephew played for several hours.  It was a great time!

Baby steps.

July 28, 2008

20 Things About Me

Filed under: Am I still Laughing?,God in Control,Mom Stuff,Random Thoughts — by tulips4me @ 4:41 pm

1.   I am 37 Years old.

2.   My birthday is 2 days before Halloween.

3.   I lived in Germany for 6 years.

4.   I lived 2 blocks from the wall in Berlin.

5.   I love a good Margarita! (Stephanie’s Hubby makes an awsome one!)

6.   I had a starter marriage.

7.   I handwash my bras.

8.   I learned to ski in the Bavarian Alps.

9.   I play the clarinet.

10.  I want to take piano lessons.

11.  I love to go camping in our travel trailer because it reminds me of playing house when I was a little girl.

12.  I have gray hair under those hghlights.

13.  I love Ghiradelli chocolate.

14.  I have one brother.

15.  I do not have any sisters.

16.  I drive a BIG SUV and LOVE it!

17.  I pay a lot of money for gasoline.

18.  If I had a daughter, her name would have been Hannah.

19.  Both of my parents are twins.

20.  I did not have twins!  (Praise God!)

July 20, 2008

Will this be you in 20 years?

Filed under: Am I still Laughing?,God in Control,Random Thoughts — by tulips4me @ 4:30 pm

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do.  So throw off the bowlines.  Sail away from the safe harbour.  Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”
– Mark Twain

July 19, 2008

Is He OCD?

Filed under: Am I still Laughing?,God in Control,Mom Stuff,Random Thoughts — by tulips4me @ 10:18 am

Recently I shared with a very good friend that I am a little concerned that Son #3 might be obsessive compulsive.  This friend’s response was, “Well, he certainly comes by it naturally!”  To which I responded, “You have never met my husband.”  To which he quipped, “I didn’t have to meet your husband!”

So, it seems that this friend thinks I am obsessive compulsive.  This is not possible, I am the most normal person anyone could meet.  Okay, I couldn’t even write that with a straight face.  Anyway, this post is not about me, but about Son #3.

If he is with me for Saturday errands, and asks where we are planning to go I am careful how I answer.  For instance, in the past, I might have told him that we were going to Target, the bank, the dry cleaner and Kohl’s.  If I chose to go to the bank and Kohl’s before heading to Target and then the dry cleaner, Son #3 would get upset.  He would remind me that this is not the order in which I told him we would be doing errands and this was not acceptable to him.  Never mind that Kohl’s and the bank are in the same shopping center and on the way to Target.  This little geographical tidbit was lost on him.  Maybe it was lost on him because he does not yet drive, doesn’t have to pay for gas and therefore doesn’t understand the need to do errands efficiently.  Another error that I have made in the past was to say that we would be going to Target, the bank, the dry cleaner and Kohl’s and then change my mind and not go to Target because I found what I needed at Kohl’s.  This also was unacceptable to Son #3 and would upset him.  Many questions would be asked as to why I changed the order of the errands, or why I changed my mind about going to a particular store.  These questions would be answered, however they would get asked repeatedly.

We are finally at a point that when he starts to ask the same questions over and over again, we remind him that he has already gotten an answer to the question and he needs to think about what that answer was.

Anyone else have these issues?  Is this typical kid stuff, or should I be worried?

July 5, 2008

Blessed and Highly Favored

Filed under: God in Control,Random Thoughts — by tulips4me @ 7:23 pm

I ran into a friend that I had not seen in a while.  I asked how she was doing and her response was “Blessed and highly favored!”  I looked at her somewhat puzzled and she shared the following story with me.

There is a lady that works for her husband.  She had a husband and two young children, a boy and a girl.  Her husband was very successful and she stayed at home raising their children and volunteering at their church.  One night there was a terrible fire that took the lives of her husband and her children.  She was burned over 50% of her body and spend months in the hospital recovering.  She was placed in a drug- induced coma for several weeks and had no idea about the fate of her family until the doctors decided that she could handle the news.  This lady now is a housekeeper at my friends’ motel.  If you ask her how she is, she will respond, “I am blessed and highly favored!” 

If this woman, who has been through so much tragedy and heartache, can see through her circumstances to more heavenly ones, maybe the next time we start to gripe when someone asks how we are, we should step back and remember this woman and how blessed we really are!

June 30, 2008

New Artwork

Filed under: Am I still Laughing?,Random Thoughts — by tulips4me @ 9:19 am

This is now on the top of my right foot!

New Artwork

Yes, it hurt!

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