Weight Loss Update

I posted my weight in January and discussed my quest to do something different this year.  Then?  My Hubby’s brother passed away, we took a vacation to Disney World, and I got generally got in my own way.  I feel as if I have not stopped eating since January 20th.  I stepped on the scale this morning and I have lost 5 pounds since I posted my weight on January 3rd.  I was very surprised that I hadn’t gained any weight. 

I am back on the wagon.  I plan to get on the treadmill in the morning.

My co-worker has a bet with her boyfriend.  If she loses more weight than he does by May 15th, she gets to buy a bracelet that she has been eyeing for quite some time.  I think she said the price tag is close to $1,000.00. 

If he wins, she has to have his name tattooed on her rear-end…What was she thinking????

Black Market Wii

I purchased a Wii last Friday.  No, I did not find one at my local retailer.  I perused Craigslist and found one there.  I know I paid a lot more than I would have had I waited for one to appear at my local retailer however I am not good at waiting when I really want something.  Also, we got our federal refund last Friday, so I didn’t go into debt to buy it.  I did meet a stranger at a Wendy’s and pay him cash.  It felt a little like I was buying a Black Market Wii. 

Now, three days later, my arm is sore from tennis and bowling.  I might add that I beat my three kiddos at bowling!!  I won’t tell you what happened when we all played tennis!

Today, Son #2 and Son#3 have a cousin and a friend over.  The cousin brought Guitar Hero.  I am hoping that I will get a chance to play!!!

Everyone Needs a Little Therapy

One of my favorite things to say is, “Everyone needs a little therapy,” and I definitely needed some.  I have not been to therapy in years.  I have gone with Son #1, but that was about his issues and not about me.  I considered making an appointment with the therapist that he used to see, however I decided against it…something about the fact that the ED had sat in that office too, made me reconsider.

Two very good friends of mine recommended a therapist they both said was great.  I am sure she is, but she was swamped and could not get me in until sometime in March.  I was feeling like I was in a therapy emergency, so I took her up on her offer to recommend someone else.  I went to see Dr. Listener on Friday.  We clicked right away and I was glad I decided not to wait.  It felt good to talk to someone about my stuff and not be afraid that I would be judged or have it thrown back at me at a later date.  Near the end of the visit, I was telling Dr. Listener about something and I laughed at myself.  She said that it was good that I could laugh about it now and I said …”Sometimes all I have left is laughter.”  She smiled and reminded me that laughter is healthy.

I am definitely going back to see her.

Disney and Reality

My Hubby and I gave the boys a trip to Disney World for Christmas.  We were scheduled to leave January 30th and return home February 5th.  When My Hubby’s brother passed away, we were prepared to postpone the trip.  My in-laws would not hear of it.  They told us that we were to continue with our plans.  Not only was it not fair to the kids, but My Hubby’s brother would have been very upset if he thought he had messed up the boys’ trip.  We decided to go. 

It was a much needed escape from reality.  Unfortunately reality caught up with us when we stepped off the plane on the 5th.  My Hubby and I are both struggling with waves of sadness.  Sometimes it feels like those waves are going to knock us over.  I was already fighting the desire to stay in bed with the covers pulled up to my chin, and now that I am dealing with The Brother’s death, it is even harder to get out of bed.

I have made an appointment with a therapist, but she cannot see me until the middle of March.  She offered to refer me to someone else, I think I might take her up on that offer.